Happy Birthday Kor. This is the first birthday of yours that you are spending it in heaven. Spending it with God. Although I am not a Christian, the prayers jie jie said yesterday touched me once again. Made me feel good only because that we know that you believe in God and are with God and thus I feel better about you not being with me. By believing in what you believe, I believe that you are in a better place, a place with no pain and no suffering and you have abundance of everything.
We celebrated your birthday in your memories. We sent our wishes written on a balloon to you. Did you receive it? I'm not sure if you did but I know you can hear our wishes anyway.
In celebration, we had your Mee Siam. I hang out with the kids and we had some fun together. I like how Natacia looks disappointed when I told her I have to leave cause it late. Not that I like to leave her but I like that she treasures the time we have together. I might not be the best uncle for now as I have too much in my head and schedule trying my best to do my best as a worker, a son, a husband and a person for myself but I do hope that when things settles down I can really spend more time with the kids. I've been running, I've been playing and practicing. I want to be fit, I want to be better so I could be the one they look upon and proud of on the court like how you made me proud when I was young. Like I written on the balloon, I would be better and I will make them play, play well.
Because of the constant craving of food such as Indian Rojak during the final stage, the
last thing I told you was "when you recover we'll go eat all the rojak
okay?" And then I was holding your hand but you shook your head and pout
at me as if you were telling me you can no longer do it with me.
I got this and I hope you there with me having it
too. I can "see" you sitting opposite me eating it with me.
We know you were there when we sang you your birthday song. We know you were there all these while watching lil Nat Nat going to Primary one. We know you were there when little Jordan attended his first day of school. And we know you will always be here for us. Always here in our heart and up in the sky watching us.
Looking forward to the day when we will really play together, eat and laugh together again.
Mr.Smith, between now and then, till I see you again....
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