Nice is crime

I have no idea how many of you will puke yourself to death if I start the topic with "I'm a nice person" but I am writing this post to complain how bad it is to be nice. I am not saying I am a saint or I am a really awesome person who has done nothing THAT bad. (hope you are okay)

Some of you might know that I'm involve with some money issues with a certain person I called friend. A certain person I trust and believe just because he is my friend. I was nice enough not to do too much about this issue and gave him time but ended up in a situation where now he told the official lies to get away with what he owes me rightfully. I lost faith. 

I am the kind of person who will give flexibility to my clients when they told me they can't give me cod because their accounts has a long procedure of clearing paper work and I will still do the work first but end of the day they will break their promise of the date to pay. I just hope that this little flexibility I am giving will let client feel that I am a good partner and will appreciate this and pay up on time there after.

I am the kind where I will lend my friends some money and nv expect to get it back cause I felt that if you are worth helping and if it's within my means I will. If I get it back, it's a bonus but apparently I am not getting the bonus yet.

I am the kind that will let people get up the bus before me if I think I am not in a hurry and maybe the next bus will be empty. But apparently SG bus is always crowded and there will always people pushing you away.

I am the kind that I will speak the truth to wake u up and take the role as a bad person but end of the day u will get it that it's for your good and I am trying to help but apparently I am still the bad person. 

Is it that difficult for humans to trust each other and give each other a little appreciation and a little faith ?  Must we live in a condition where we are all for ourselves and we just care about profit and not relationship? How could we live in a condition where there is no love? How could we live in a condition where we are so skeptical about each other's move and always watching our back? Apparently we could and we are doing it. 

Call me stupid, call me silly but I trust the people around me. I have a strong gut feeling about people who are cheating me or lying but too often I choose to ignore that feeling and go with my head and decided to trust but always ended up as the victim. How many more blows can I take before I decide to turn to the dark side and live a life without faith and trust? 

To quote optimus prime in transformer 3 

"In any war, there are calms between storms. There will be days when we lose faith. Days when our allies turn against us. But the day will never come, that we forsake this planet, and its people. 
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Not all is lost as long as we believe.