The Big Bubble in my head...

No.. i am not intending to complete my previous post as i believe it's just gonna be another one of the smith nagging and i guess sometimes it hurts to listen to my smith-lor-sor-phy and now u have to read abt it.. fuck up.. so i rather not..

so what's with this upcoming post? nope. nothing interesting as well.. no new pictures nothing abt what happen to me nowadays and no scandal (STILL )

it's about my work.. it has always been a bubble in my head and till date they bubble just get bigger just that everyonce in awhile i will just hide it in a corner to make myself feel better..

but recently this bubble just dash out from no where and becoming the biggest thing in my head.. partly due to my application of HDB flat..

i never felt like time is rushing me to grow... i am always doing things so spontaneously and so in a manner carefree.. i do what i believe in and i do what i want myself to do and i always get it done..

but this time round this thing hit me big.. it hit me over the weekend and it is still there.. it's still the passion vs money shit and to make situation worst economic crisis joins in the fun which then place the situation on a different platform...

so i have friend doing simple stuff and 9 - 6pm monday - friday and they earn 2-3k.. i have friend who do nothing at all in office and get a normal average pay but he have alot of time to do his whole business and get rich.. which is why i always say comparison kill a person.. i made the 1st mistake.. i compared.. i am living here working round the clock.. doing more then i should.. feeling for the company but i am lowly paid.. yes.. no one else wants my job with this pay.. my job is fun.. is wonderful.. is the kind of job where i can do things i like and change what i think is not right and best of all.. create the thing which i believe is right.. so what's the problem? moolah moolah is.. looking at time to come and age is running behind me chasing with all his sweat.. the fact.. i'm 25.. within the next 5 years.. i have to ROM.. i have to get this flat.. renovate it..buy furniture and get married..

I'M A MAN !!! omg.. I was suppose to me the funny guy who live care free and doing my arty farty shit and leading my own smith-lor-sor-phy.. but now shld i be throwin away all my thought and go for gold? and even if i go for gold.. in this economic u dunno which company will just fold when as well.. so i am like a g-string stuck in the ass..

and i need more pple into this company to help out if we wanna move as a big team.. but this small little paycheck aint getting any good staff in in anyway and this is a fact that i have voice out to my bosses millions of times and they just thought that they have no choice.. but i already put it in a way that our business is a human resource kinda business where HUMAN IS THE ASSETS !!! without better pple there will be no better job isnt it? so the egg and the chicken thing like how my boss put it.. but no action is done and when no new peeps come in i will not move and it's hard for me to earn more and do more...

my timeline is 3 yrs.. i already clock 2 of mine.. last 1 yr.. if end of 3 yrs i dun get what i want.. i leave.. that's what i say. but being loyal to this company and + this louys economic situation.. what can i do??

i believe in the potential of this company and i am grateful for who i am today to this company.. but i am not moving on .. i am not improving..

what can i do from here? is anyone going to shine me my way??

everytime when my friends are in trouble.. be it work.. family..money.. love.. i can always analyse it so well and give so many suggestion.. but now i am stuck with my own.. i totally dig the example i gave keong : ( u dun see the hair dresser cutting his own hair.. )

The confused
Smith....

Mr.Smith,now i am stuck too...

"我就是我行我素　我沒有風度　我只有態度　你說我太酷"