I was a band member

But not so as cool as them

Not as well memorable as them either

Definitely didn't have a career as long as theirs

And luckily, not as gay as them

So what was I? What did I play or what did I do?

Can you spot me? That was a picture taken when I was 15. That makes it 16 years ago. I was in a Military Band/Concert Band. I suck. I wasn't at all talented. Something that others need 10mins to learn would take me 20mins. To make things worst, I've never invested that 20mins.

I was lazy. I was a fat boy and my defence mechanism was my sense of humour. Still is until today but the main difference was I was the invisible guy in the band. I can bet my money that half the band doesn't even knew I was in the band. I had fun with the boys from the percussion section but that's about it. I was a awkward fat little boy who can't play music to save his life and at the same time refuse to practice.

I can't blame anyone for that besides myself. So why was I at the band? I mean I like music, just that I'm not a natural musical. I like to perform, I like to be on the stage, I enjoy the company of the guys. I mean I did toy with the idea of leaving the CCA but they kept me there. I had fun, I got my CCA point. I wasn't driven to become any leader nor anything. Although I did went back to the band very often to help out with planning partly and what not during my alumni years which didn't end up well at all, I had my run. #BadTeenageMemories

I still like the stage, I like the attention but what sucks is that I'm not good with any performing act besides talking. I did a bit of show hosting here and there growing up but I didn't put in the hours to become show host full time either.

I digress. I just want to show off my new toys from Yongwei. Cajon Drum pronounce as ca-hon because it is mexican. So in Mexico you are Jorny and not Horny. I am not sure if I will eventually be able to play something because my sister bought me a ukelele some years back and all I did was take photo with it to look talented.

I guess talent is important but commitment is even more important. Like someone I used to know once mentioned to someone else "I have commitment issues". I guess that is true to certain extend. Irony is that I've been dating my wife for 13 years. #IWonderHowIWonderWhy

Here's a song for you about commitment. 10,000 Hours.