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I was talking to a friend the other day and he was trying to "date" me as he wanted to bounce off some ideas with me.
I get such "dates" pretty often probably because of my reputation of my work and my ground has always been the same.
1. No MLM shit and tell me it is a potential "business idea". I'm out and about long enough to know what's a real business and what's bull shit.
2. No insurance nonsense. I've an insurance agent who takes care of everyone in the family and she is so good that I do not know what I'm covered. HAHA. Some how she will even know when I'm injured from my basketball game, calls me and bug me to visit the doctor and claim my medical. That's how good she is. (If you guys need help just drop me a PM, i shall not show her off here. HAHA.)
Amongst the few things that he wanted to share with me, 1 of them is about creating content online. And during the exchange of texts, he actually mentioned something like "I like your blog a lot. I don't use instagram much but I always follow your blog. Sad to know that you don't blog anymore."
WHAT? SINCE WHEN DID I RETIRE FROM BLOGGING???? HOW COME I DIDN'T GET THE MEMO?
So I quickly went to my blog to check it out and I realized it does look a little bit like that. I used to be able to throw out 3-4 articles a week and has a alexa ranking hovering around 1k ish and now I'm only blogging like 7 posts for the whole of June? OMG! What happened?
Is it because nothing much has been happening around me? Is it because I lost the love of sharing? Or simply because I got "too busy"?
Yes, I got busy with the arrival of my new born son and business has been keeping me really busy. On top of the major project that is about to be launched real soon, I managed to close a few interesting and fun deals as well but "time" is really never an issue with me.
So what happened?
Actually no. Nobody is judging me. Or rather not many that has judged me are still alive. I digress. I am the one that have been judging myself. In fact wayyyyyyy too much.
I've been reading (or trying to) a lot more these days. The more I read, the more I know and the less I know. I'm not too sure if you know what I mean but this is how I feel. The feeling is as such that because I know more things, I realized that I actually do not know enough to say that I am an expert in any field.
I will feel like writing something once in awhile but I will stop to question myself about how much do I really know about this topic. Do I know enough to call myself a subject matter expert to be sharing this online or would it become a point that I write it out there and just make myself sounds really stupid?
Judging a book by its cover is so yesteryears. It's all about judging someone based on their social media platforms such as facebook and instagram. (And blogs for some of us.) While I still try my best to be funny and share some interesting stories on and off. I feel that too often I question why would I want to write about something and I just stop there.
Does this post make sense?
Do my readers enjoy reading this?
Has any sites already written this? Do I look like I'm copying people's post?
Do I truly know this subject?
What if I write this and sound like an idiot?
What if I write this post and offend people? It might go viral but I don't feel like replying to 10,000 people on facebook.
Are there any value on this post?
Do I want to talk about my work about fund raising for startups or social media again on my blog?
Do I sound like ultimate 班门弄斧 since there are more experts out there?
I think I'm suffering from major analysis paralysis where I analyse soooo much and ended up with no action.
Poor Bran Stark.
So I guess this is the reason why I haven't been blogging much. I've really been overthinking. I should really try to blog a little more. :X
In case you feel that this post sucks (you see my insecurities hitting me again), here's a very nice MTV for you.