Moments

Chinese New Year came and go so quickly. Can you believe it? 15 days just flew passed like this. I guess this is how life is too often isn't it. Things are usually so much faster and easier on hindsight. The anticipation on the arrival of my son almost killed me. The 10 months of waiting and uncertainty and now he is already here with us for almost 3 weeks and I am back at work after my paternity leave, looking at numbers, replying email and thinking of our next product and calculating revenue. (I shall not bore you with the details of my work.) It was almost like yesterday that I just announced our pregnancy on FB and next thing you know he is already here with us. I can still hear his crying in my head. haha.

With his arrival we I started making space at home for him, decluttering things I am no longer allowed to keep we no longer need or never even needed in the 1st place.  I was looking at things in my studies and my wife was asking me what's with me and buying things I never ever needed and spending thousands of dollars on my toy collections. How many pairs of feet do I have that I need to have so many pairs of sneakers? How many body do I have that I need all these jerseys or watches?

Is it the things that I really needed? Some of the things are like brand new, untouched and to be honest almost forgotten. Is the possession of material so important to me? Or was it the moment of purchasing?

We always laugh at people who say that money can't buy you happiness right? I mean all you need to know is the right place to spill your blood. Be it travel for experience or buying a new car. A lot of my friends who love to travel will tell me that they are spending money better on experience while me buying a brand new TV for $4,000 is material and I can make better use of my money on traveling and meeting new people. I mean I do not deny the fact that traveling do make you gain new experiences (and also take nice pictures for my instagram) but I feel like buying a TV to me is also an "experience". The moment of thrill when you know you are getting it. ($4,000 Mediacorp machine doesn't sound too right. Thank God to smart TV and Netflix)

Is that one of those kind of moments we live for? Some times we make mistakes in our lives just for the thrill in that moment like for example eating a nice fat burger and regret feeling fat there after. You know what they say about a moment on the lips and a life time on the hips right? (It's all about that bass)

Do we all make bad decisions on and off just to indulge in that moment? Are these moments what we live for and make us feel alive simply "because we can" instead of living a life like a hamster running in circles on the wheel?

Like for example, I've recently developed what I believe is gluten intolerance. If you have no idea, I would just explain it briefly. Basically I can no longer eat things with gluten like rice and bread. What will happened if I eat them? I will have hives all over me for the rest of the night.

In an even shorter summary - I'm fked. Or not?

So why do I just "believe" and not go to a doctor to get it fixed or verified? Because there is no cure for gluten intolerance and since it's just hives and not like shrinking my balls, what is the chance that I will give up my favorite Nasi Lemak, Pizza, or even Burger? Not a chance, not even close. So I guess now these food are bad for me but I still take them on and off and suffer later. It might be a little painful to watch on the side line when I'm scratching myself like a monkey but I guess the moment of happiness and joy is totally worth it.

Somethings are so wrong but so right at the same time. Now I guess this sentence makes a lot more sense to me. LOL

That's a lot of random thoughts from just decluttering my room. I guess I just miss my toys that I've been displaying and now hiding it under the bed. :'( And I guess the gluten intolerance is kinda good for my diet too right? No carbs! No Dad Bod! )