is it because of my work? i am feeling rather fed up with everybody around me.. my friends.. my colleague .. and even my love ones.. no body owe me no shit..i need some space for myself.. i want to be alone..which might not be the best solution..but i just have the urge for it.. hide myself for a month or two in the cave of bibibobo island..but of course there's always better solution like meeting up with little ger ger nat nat who still makes my day.. went shopping with her at giants which was suppose to be a swimming trip ( on well.. u know.. the dark clouds.. the rain changes plans )
I am feeling like everything is stuck inside me everytime i am at this seat at work.. i cant help it but to compare.. to seek for ans to question with no ans.. i procrastinate..i am feel with hatred and anger.. i am bursting out soon.. soon .. but dunno when.. pple knowing me i dun like to complain abt my job and i dun like to push responsibility.. even when in army ( a place where pple says bo keng bo chu peng) i also dun like to keng.. i like the feeling of being important.. being in the role of leading and picking up responsibilities.. i serious hate it when i contridick my self.. i didnt make a typo.. it's realli a dick to contridick myself.. =.=
why cant pple just pick up their responsibility and DO it.. i mean it.. DO IT!!! not sit on it.. not just do for the sake of doing.. picking up the responsibility and ownership of all job given.. DO IT !!! DAMMIT !!!
anyway.. result of IPT..
During Army ( Best Result ) // Cat Test // Recent Test //
Pull Up - 8 // 2 // 0 ( wtf?? after more training become 0 )
Shutter Run - 10.2 // 11.2 // 10.4 ( no complain )
Sit-up - 50 ( i cant rmember.. i know i 5 points ) // 27 // 35 ( belly too big liao lor )
SBJ - 225 ( 1 time lucky thing )// 189 // 203 ( not sexpecting much from this station anyway )
2.4 10.5* ( 5 sumthing but duno wat ) // * dunno.. cause they nv tell // 14 min .. wah sian.. dunno how come so slow.. funny thing abt ippt is in fact i enjoy the 2.4 run.. i enjoy the feeling of looking at others running in front of me and overtaking them.. but well i guess this IPT everybody also rather slow.. so overtake liao still 14mins.. knn..
but of course , IPPT being pain in the ass for all healthy singapore man isnt that bad after all.. new brotherhood is forge even after army and that's the time u can feeling the brotherly love of SAF and switch off ur brain and just do physical.. proposal? deadline? new idea? new mananger in town? ahhhh fug lah.. who cares abt all these when u are in camp.. just seat back.. relac.. and act blur live longer..
Mr.Smith , evolution is a nicer word for changing..upgrading is a word for changing too.. degrading also means changing..THE LAST STAND !! choose your side
"我就是我行我素 我沒有風度 我只有態度 你說我太酷"